It's really not a theory I guess, or even a hypothesis. It's not as if I actually intend to prove or disprove anything.

I have a theory which I half-heartedly began forming in high school. It has nothing to do with cliques or social status; I can say now that it took me a bit of time to fit in, but high school for me was never the way it appeared in teen rom-com films. I didn't waste much time pondering why some people were popular and others were not. High school was never like that to begin with and I was never interested in, or envious of, what other people did or who their friends were. And aside from that, there was never a controlling, elite group of kids. I found it to be very live-and-let-live.

However, I have always been an observer of people, and there was one difference that always stood out between myself and others.

Or, to put it in a manner that makes me stand out a bit less than I intended to, there was a key difference between two groups of people. And myself being a member of one of those groups.

I have felt since then that those two types, that I first identified, continue to prevail.

There are people who have been well-molded to fit the world. I'm not sure what their parents did or taught them, or if they were schooled differently, but they seem to 1) always know what is happening and what needs to be done, and 2) are always able to easily go along with it.

Then there are people who are perpetually trying to fit into a mold they weren't made for. I always see it as a misshapen lump of bread that is trying to look like a proper loaf, except it can't because that's not the way it was made. And I am one of those people, who are continuously baffled by the world and all of its processes, and spend half their lives trying to get used to, and be comfortable in, such a non-sensical place. So consequently we end up being the ones who are called strange by everyone who is so much better adjusted.

However, I feel that despite this, we end up being the ones who are able to see the world better. Things can sometimes be so much clearer if you are outside looking in.

Although then you're still just outside of where you need to be to actually get along properly, so I'm not really sure who wins in this case.